Thursday, March 12, 2009
Life is amazing to me, you try to please someone, although they do absolutely nothing to please you and in turn you get the short end of the stick.....
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Funny I just read my last post, wow wow wow what a difference a day makes. The trip was a ton of fun, different but fun, and just what I needed.
As soon as I got back life went backwards at a frightening speed! I am in tremendous debt and now must pay $3k a month just to keep out of court on one card, to whom I've paid thousands to and in turn had absolute no consideration for that or anything else for that matter.
I still do not have a job, but did pass a test for a hopefully very promising job, from whom I hope and pray I will here back from soon.
I am now 30, I'm at a state of total confusion. I am no where in my life that is a cause for celebration, but I do have a ton of great memories from my past.
I am remaining very positive, or at least trying to. Life has a funny way of working out at the end. It is now lent and I've given up soda, and have taken to praying/meditating for 1/2 an hour on Mondays. I read passages from the bible every time and yesterday came upon something that touched me and made me smile, and realize tons of things but at the same time nothing. It was Psalm 34:4 " I sought the Lord, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears."
Now I love quotes and sayings but this one is now my favorite. Reminded me of when Dr. George told me Gd doesn't give you anything you can't handle.....right after I came out of a coma and miscarried twin boys...LOL! yea I can now laugh at the thought.
Anyway, I am still missing something personally and emotionally in my life and just right now decided to start praying that I may find it somewhere and with someone soon.
I stand by the fact that I am a simple girl living in a complicated world.